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I have come to not believe in, but rather have faith in, the balance of nature – or is the nature of balance.

My film girl world just had a sky rocketing event – which oddly delivered a bottoming out event at The Cubicle, The Day Gig.

Is this just the nature of things, balancing out? Is it a message hit on the tails of something more destined? Is it just human emotions and confusion with very synchronistic timing?

Either way, it puts the world into perspective. On many levels. Relationships. Legacy. Simple love of life and what it truely means to live with love in the minds eye.

Either way, I sit at Starbucks, settling into what shift in course to make, to take and to accept.

Funny thing, the Universe is. Seems to know Exacty where and when to poke you with it’s mischievious life shift stick.

I smile, because I finally trust that it knows what’s best for me. I smile because I feel I am finally truely starting to not only talk, but listen to it’s beautiful language. Love. Life. Light.

Have an amazing day – where ever you are in the universe. You aren’t alone – ever.



Posted by on June 14, 2012 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS


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FilmGirls Guide to Kickstarter

FilmGirls Guide to Kickstarter

What is holding you back from your dream?


If you are reading this, I assume you already have some knowledge or experience with Kickstarter, what it is at least at the most basic level, and you are thinking that THIS may be the ticket to your project taking flight or finding the funding to complete it.

So we will jump right in. If you haven’t poked around the Kickstarter site, do it now. Invest ONE HOUR to navigate and explore – this is REALLY your FIRST HOUR of YOUR WORK, investing in yourself and investing in the success of your project on Kickstarter.

If you “can’t find the time or don’t have the time” then DONT BOTHER with my challenges,  Kickstarter or any other crowdsourced funding platforms. Go watch a movie until you feel you are ready to invest the work into making your own, or pledge $15 to watch mine, One Night in Seattle (the cheeky monkey that I am).

Film. Race. Rally. Red Carpet. One Night in Seattle & The Race to Sundance : Final Version for Kickstarter from CFilmGirl on Vimeo.

OR, step up to the CHALLENGE to get one step further to making your dream come true. Over the next few weeks, I will be taking you on a journey closer to your dream than you have ever come and it starts TODAY. NOT TOMORROW or NEXT WEEK, but TODAY, right NOW. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted by on March 14, 2012 in SherpaGURUS


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Searching a Way Out | WritersLOG

I wanted to share it with you as i think it’s the closest, reader’s digest version of my own fears and why I am where I am right now. This is my brief History, how I hold myself back / my own “INVISIBLE SCRIPT”.

Of course there is more, much more, but this is the core of it all.  I just wanted to share it with you. I did post it on my CFG FB as will, mostly because it deals with life story and healing (and depression). These are elements I am encouraging people to share in order to heal. I am still learning how to share and heal too…

Here goes….

The Script:

“no one will pay me to be a filmmaker or actor”.

The Story, realization & manifestation:

From when I was young, I wanted to be an actor, but I was too pudgy and too shy. I had a big break my last year in school, a community play, where I got the lead role, got lost in the part and got the audience’s love, but didn’t know where to go from that point, I was in a bit of ‘dream-shock’ you might say.

Right after the high school play at christmas, and starting to fill out applications for university, I was literally sick – my body shut down for the whole last half of the year – I went from being considered for the graduating class valedictorian to barely getting out of bed in the morning. I didn’t really know why – I was too young to understand what depression was, especially under the guise of mono-like symptoms.

7 years later, I did end up committing to fulltime acting training, focusing on feature film and TV, while holding down a fulltime job in Engineering. Again, I shocked myself and others after 2 years of hard, dedicated work to my acting craft, but didn’t know how to take it from class to gig. I lived in a city where film work was limited and when I moved to a city that did, Vancouver, there was a US/Canada writer’s strike, no filming was done during the strike, casting directors loved me, but there was nothing to cast during that time.

I went home after a few months, broke and back to the old fulltime Engineering job and no acting gigs. So I decided to make my own acting gigs, wrote a script, bought the camera and edit system, cast myself out of the feature film lead role in order to direct and ‘protect the story’ – funding it all by working in Engineering. All the while, “PAYING TO PLAY” as a filmmaker, writer, actor – not “being paid to play”. I guess I was told at that young age, that ARTISTS STARVE, so I should focus on a career that would make money instead. I guess, I believed what I was told.

It’s been 7 years since buying the camera and shifting from pursuing acting into independent filmmaking, and if you’ve been following me here and/or on Facebook, you know a ton of things have happened in that 7 years both in my film world and my personal world. And YES, my INVISIBLE SCRIPTS have been haunting me the whole way.

Now, I am just entering into post production (editing) on my first feature film and I am unable to personally fund this last stage at this point. My options are going back to the Engineering job to make money to pay to finish my film or put a proposal in for crowdsource financing via Kickstarter. On the acting front, I’m now 38, a little old, but ready to dust off the chops, get the headshots redone. I’ve booked my first read through for a friend’s first feature film. It’s non-paying and just a sit down read through for the writer to see how it sounds/looks off the page, but it’s a start. I guess I need to believe I can bring value to a story, a creative vision and an audience’s experience – enough so that someone somewhere will drop a dollar or two in my hat.

I have battled with these scripts ever since high school, and not really believing in myself or my talents, “artists don’t make money”, “why you over the other talented people”, “you’re too ambitious”.

I have been depressed / searching for a ‘way out’ of this script and a ‘way into’ the one I dream of ever since.

I think I am starting to live the dream…

-SherpaGuru, Shawna

This entry was inspired by, Ramit Sethi

…and his “How to overcome Fear by the 5 minute straight jacket technique” via his “Find a Dream Job” private list, via

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Posted by on January 28, 2012 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS, WritersLOG


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Wild Beach | WritersLog

Somewhere on the horizon the water touches the sky – or so it seems

I prayed to the grandfathers as they approached from the west
Sand in my fingers and hope in my heart
Answers for guidance and direction yet found
I openly prayed for peace for myself and peace surrounding

I secretly prayed to be done
To be nodded off to that wild beach that calls from inside my heart

Thunder looked me in the eye and studied my face
It knew I wasn’t strong enough to go alone
He took my spirit in his and walked me into my sacred place
He followed me with his words until he heard the silence i was hiding inside
His eyes dropped my breath and I exhaled a gentle wind the elders descended

They took my hand in theirs and prayed to release
thunder spoke my secret I shuttered
Not in fear in freedom
I shuddered with guilt responsibility assumed.

Sadness heavy a dream apart from known.

Thunder lifted my wings
West lifted my darkness
Path cleared before me
Destination once now forever unknown.

Prayers answered faith in journey.

Joy not knowing tests past.

This peace spoke of rests in wild
Where the sun touches the waters
Where the waters greet the sands
Where the sands warm spirit
Where spirit rise above – or so it seems.

-Shawna Cox, Oct 31 2011

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Posted by on October 31, 2011 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS, WritersLOG


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Window of Time | WritersLOG

I believe time doesn’t exist and that love and all
relations transcend all time and space for all eternity… Until a
voice said “right now”… …I stopped thinking about
timelessness…I all of the sudden understood something quite
different. I repeated those words ‘right now’ again and again, but
the last time… I heard it as “write now”. And this is what I
wrote… I understood that time needs to exist. That we need a
window to relate to each other in this time and space. That yes,
past present and future are indeed one, but we are in THiS reality
and we need this one window of TIME to fully live this lifetime.
Seeing this one window of ‘right now’, of living only what we see
in this window of time of NOW, frees us from the past and
future…from ‘once known’ and ‘future expectation’ IF… we choose
to let ourselves look through it, giving our full attention to what
it wishes to show us ‘right now’. If we choose to let the past pass
and choose to trust that we are clear on our intention for the
future, this window of time in space, becomes our key to truly
seeing our journey in real time, just like the window of a plane.
From sunrise to sunset and around the world…know that you are
booked on the best seat and are truly on the journey of a life time
and that it’s beauty is truly passing by right before your eyes…
Let go of where you came from – you will remember when you need to.
Let go of what you expect to encounter – you will know when you
feel it. Just keep looking out that window with your full
attention, because you may just miss how beautiful your journey
truly is…”right now.”

And between you and me… I always book the window seat on a plane. I only now, ‘right now’, understand why. 🙂


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Posted by on January 3, 2011 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS, WritersLOG


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Solo Travel + Film Adventure

Solo Travel + Film Adventure

DREAM BIG – what ever it is – where ever it may lead you.

Prepare your passport, pack light and don’t worry about the details. If you want encouragement or inspiration, this is my own true story of solo travel and film adventure that started in 2004 and has touched down in Mexico, Tunisia, Libya, Morocco, Portugal, Canada, USA, France, England, Romania, Hungary & more.

New SherpaGuru Shawna

Looking forward to sharing adventures past, right here right now, and down the road ahead. See you at the next outpost out there somewhere in the middle of nowhere!

Following Heart; Chasing Dreams.

-Shawna / Canadian Film Girl

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Posted by on April 2, 2010 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS


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SLOG – so this is all you need | LOVE

It’s not easy…but I think it’s what we are supposed to do.

Funny, I am labeled a mid level producer, but I feel like I haven’t earned it yet. Same old same old – some times success isn’t material – isn’t something you can show. Success is movement, steps, stages. No one will ever know what you have done to get there, so be gentle with yourself and give the same credit to yourself that you observe in others… You are well on your way.
Learning to give a ‘day’s’ win a place in your heart without the need for a prize – this is all you need to make what you dream a reality.
This I am working to remember. I moved pretty quickly the last few years and never looked back OR even gave myself the time to see where I even was at the moment! I am only now, looking back and saying “holy shit woman… No wonder you are so tired and no wonder people are asking you ‘how?’

So, back to the advice…

#1. fall in love with your vision – it and you are what will carry you through

#2. take good care and special attention to your health – there are NO execptions to this

#3. find people like you – a moment or a life long friendship… These people will be the shelter, food and warmth to enjoy those ‘daily wins’…

Warmth and Dreams;  a whole New Year…

New Years Eve 2009


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Posted by on January 11, 2010 in ShawnaLOG, SherpaGURUS


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