Welcome to Day 1 at My Day Gig & Outpost Cubicle2068.
It’s my first day back in the Piping Designer seat in the engineering company, Fransen (a Tetra-Tech company) to not only finish my first feature film, One Night in Seattle, but to also (and more importantly) put food on the table.
I’ve been here before. This isn’t something new. Except this time, I’m going to learn everything I can instead of pity myself and guilt myself from the decisions I made leading up to having to lend time from my film towards a seemingly unrelated task. In the past I would go into a panic attack by now – lunch time, time for me to hyperventilate and have a river of tears streaming endlessly from my face – totally unwilled and unstoppable. If this has ever happened to you, you know what I’m talking about – hits you like a brick and something else takes over the ventilation & waterworks. Like being at a loved ones funeral only this one… feels like yours, your dreams, your whole reason to live gone.
This time, this is different. There are a few elements aligning. Something about honesty, authenticity, trust and most important, something a little universal. I asked, and I was lead here. Things are oddly lining up. It feels right. I’m open to see this as a milestone – a next step – an outpost that is going to launch me into my dream even deeper.
I just got a free laptop, a free mug and a whole floor of people who believe in me and a company willing to pay me for my talents! Really, what could be better than this? This leads me to the finish line. The financial means to create amazing experiences around finishing my first feature film. Nothing in this world could be better than this, an 8 year journey coming to a close… Just as I write this, I know the universe is winking and saying “you ain’t seen nothing yet, girl.”
Well, I just have to wink back and say “I know, and you ain’t seen nothing yet either.”
The universe and everyone in it is my co-pilot and we are on quite the adventure. Can’t wait to see what and who is around the next bend.
Charting as we speak…